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On June 9, 2009, just after 2 A.M.,
 Laura S. left the restaurant where she waitressed, in Pharr, Texas, and
 drove off in her white Chevy. She was in an unusually hopeful mood. Her
 twenty-third birthday was nine days away, and she and her 
nineteen-year-old cousin, Elizabeth, had been discussing party plans at 
the restaurant. They’d decided to have coolers of beer, a professional 
d.j., and dancing after Laura put her three sons to bed. Now they were 
heading home, and giving two of Laura’s friends a ride, with a quick 
detour for hamburgers. Elizabeth said that, as they neared the highway, a
 cop flashed his lights at them. The officer, Nazario Solis III, claimed
 that Laura had been driving between lanes and asked to see her license 
and proof of insurance.
Laura had neither. She’d lived in the United States undocumented her whole adult life.
“Do you have your residence card?” Solis asked.
“No,”
 Laura said, glancing anxiously at her cousin and her friends. Solis 
questioned them, too. Only Elizabeth had a visa, which she fished out of
 her purse. Solis directed the others to get out of the car. “I’m 
calling Border Patrol,” he said—an unusual move, at the time, for a 
small-town cop in South Texas.
Laura
 panicked. At five feet two inches and barely a hundred pounds, she 
looked younger than her age. She often wore tube tops and short shorts, 
and styled her hair in a girlish bob. Her affect was “attached to 
childhood,” her older brother told me; she collected porcelain dolls, 
and loved Japanese anime and Saturday-morning cartoons. Laura’s friends 
saw her trembling. Like her, they had kids who were U.S. citizens and 
steady jobs they didn’t want to lose, but they knew that Laura’s fear 
was distinct. She had an ex-husband across the border, in Reynosa, 
Mexico, who had promised to kill her if she returned.
“I
 can’t be sent back to Mexico,” Laura told Solis, beginning to cry. “I 
have a protection order against my ex—please, just let me call my mom 
and she’ll bring you the paperwork.”
Laura’s
 two-year-old had an operation scheduled for later that week, to remove 
an abscess in his neck, and Laura also told Solis about that. “I need to
 be here,” she begged, in Spanish. In English, Elizabeth detailed the 
threats from Laura’s ex, Sergio. “You can’t do this,” Elizabeth said. 
“He’ll kill her.”
“Sorry,” 
Solis replied, shrugging. “I already called.” (Solis could not be 
reached for comment. He was later sent to prison for unrelated 
convictions, including bribery, extortion, and drug conspiracy.)
Laura
 had started dating Sergio when she was eighteen, and he soon became 
physically abusive. After a particularly horrific night the previous 
spring, when Sergio assaulted her, Laura had finally called the police, 
and coöperated with them to secure his arrest. He was later deported. In
 the year since then, Laura had tried to create a normal childhood for 
her sons. She shared a small trailer with Elizabeth and the boys near 
the Sharyland Plantation, a gated community of houses with 
lima-bean-shaped swimming pools and Roman-pillared porches which 
advertised its “delicate scent of hibiscus and bougainvillea flowers.” 
Sometimes she’d dress the boys in cowboy outfits, and use the neighbors’
 sheep and horses as their personal petting zoo. At night, she’d sneak 
into the citrus groves and pick oranges for breakfast, humming her 
favorite song, “Single Mom”: “A single mother who does not worry, who 
will always fight to be a mom. Tell him she can be a mother without 
him.” Still, Sergio haunted her. In Mexico, he’d reportedly joined a 
local drug cartel. He often texted Laura death threats.
Laura
 and her friends waited by the roadside until a U.S. Border Patrol agent
 named Ramiro Garza arrived and ordered the three of them into his 
vehicle. Laura pleaded with Garza as he drove them to a nearby 
processing center, where Laura’s friends saw her, under pressure, sign 
paperwork for a “voluntary return.” Three hours later—after holding off 
until dawn “for safety reasons,” Garza later explained, “since there 
were females involved”—he drove them to the McAllen-Hidalgo 
International Bridge, which crosses the Rio Grande and leads to Reynosa,
 a city so violent that the U.S. State Department forbids its employees 
there from venturing out after midnight.
As
 the sun rose, Laura stepped onto the bridge and into a much larger 
story, one that has launched a major legal battle over the U.S. 
government’s duty to protect prospective deportees who plead for their 
lives. The lawsuit, and others like it, has implications for the 
treatment of hundreds of thousands of immigrants who have found refuge 
in the United States, and for whom deportation can be tantamount to 
death. Some, like Laura, are survivors of domestic violence seeking 
safety in the U.S. Others, like Elizabeth, are Dreamers, undocumented 
youths who were granted relief from deportation under President Obama, 
only to have their status imperilled by his successor. Still others are 
asylum seekers from Central America, Syria, Afghanistan, Somalia, and 
elsewhere, who have fled gangs, climate crises, and armed conflicts,
 and then been misinformed or turned away by U.S. Customs and Border 
Protection officers, some of whom have been emboldened under President 
Trump.
In the final moments 
before Laura crossed the bridge, she turned to Agent Garza. “When I am 
found dead,” she told him, “it will be on your conscience.”
When
 Donald Trump announced his bid for the Presidency, he made anxieties 
about whiteness under siege a signature part of his platform. On the 
campaign trail, he promised to “deport all criminal aliens and save 
American lives.” After his Inauguration, the Department of Homeland 
Security created an office for the victims of crimes committed by 
undocumented immigrants, called VOICE—Victims
 of Immigration Crime Engagement. The office is compiling an online 
database to track “illegal alien perpetrators of crime.” (Data show that
 immigrants actually commit crimes at lower rates than U.S. citizens.) 
There is, however, no White House initiative to track a more sprawling 
set of legal violations involving immigrants—violations for which the 
U.S. government is largely responsible.
In
 the past decade, a growing number of immigrants fearing for their 
safety have come to the U.S., only to be sent back to their home 
countries—with the help of border agents, immigration judges, 
politicians, and U.S. voters—to violent deaths. Even as border 
apprehensions have dropped, the number of migrants coming to the U.S. 
because their lives are in danger has soared. According to the United 
Nations, since 2008 there has been a fivefold increase in asylum seekers
 just from Central America’s Northern Triangle—Honduras, Guatemala, and 
El Salvador—where organized gangs are dominant. In 2014, according to 
the U.N., Honduras had the world’s highest murder rate; El Salvador and 
Guatemala were close behind.
Politicians
 often invoke the prospect of death by deportation in debates about the 
fate of these immigrants and others with precarious status, like the 
Dreamers. In February, 2016, in a speech criticizing the lack of legal 
representation for Central American children seeking refuge, Harry Reid,
 at that time the Senate Minority Leader, warned Congress, “Deportation 
means death for some of these people.” That summer, Senator Edward J. 
Markey, of Massachusetts, told the press, “We should not be sending 
families back to situations where they can be killed.” He added, “That’s
 just un-American.”
These 
conversations have been largely theoretical, devoid of names and faces. 
No U.S. government body monitors the fate of deportees, and 
immigrant-aid groups typically lack the resources to document what 
happens to those who have been sent back. Fear of retribution keeps most
 grieving families from speaking publicly. In early 2016, as the 
director of the Global Migration Project, at Columbia University’s 
Graduate School of Journalism, I set out, with a dozen graduate 
students, to create a record of people who had been deported to their 
deaths or to other harms—a sort of shadow database of the one that the 
Trump Administration later compiled to track the crimes of “alien 
offenders.” We contacted more than two hundred local legal-aid 
organizations, domestic-violence shelters, and immigrants’-rights groups
 nationwide, as well as migrant shelters, humanitarian operations, law 
offices, and mortuaries across Central America. We spoke to families of 
the deceased. And we gathered the stories of immigrants who had endured 
other harms—including kidnapping, extortion, and sexual assault—as a 
result of deportations under Obama and Trump.
As
 the database grew to include more than sixty cases, patterns emerged. 
Often, immigrants or their families had warned U.S. officials that they 
were in danger if sent back. Ana Lopez, the mother of a twenty-year-old 
gay asylum seeker named Nelson Avila-Lopez, wrote a letter to the U.S. 
government during Christmas week in 2011, two months after Immigration 
and Customs Enforcement accidentally deported him to Honduras. Nelson 
had fled the country at seventeen, after receiving gang threats. He’d 
entered the U.S. unauthorized and been ordered removed, but an 
immigration judge then granted him an emergency stay of his deportation 
so that he could reopen his case for asylum. An ICE agent told his family’s legal team that Nelson was deported because “someone screwed up,” and ICE alleges that the proper office had not been notified of the judge’s stay.
“His
 life is in danger,” Ana Lopez wrote, begging U.S. authorities to 
reverse her son’s deportation. Her efforts proved fruitless. Two months 
later, Nelson died in a prison fire, along with more than three hundred 
and fifty other inmates. His lawyer told me that Nelson had been 
detained by the Honduran government without charges, in an anti-gang 
initiative. Survivors of the fire alleged that it was set intentionally,
 perhaps as an act of gang retaliation, and that the guards had done 
little to help the men as they screamed and burned to death in their 
cells.
We discovered, too, how 
minor missteps—a traffic violation or a workplace dispute—can turn 
lethal for unauthorized immigrants. At eighteen, Juan Carlos 
Coronilla-Guerrero was deported from Texas to Mexico. He later returned 
and settled in Buda, Texas, with his wife. He worked as a carpenter and 
raised three kids. In January, 2017, someone in his neighborhood 
reported him for a domestic dispute; police found him in possession of a
 quarter of a gram of marijuana.
In
 March, Coronilla went to the Travis County courthouse for what, before 
Trump’s election, would likely have been a quick misdemeanor hearing. 
Travis was a “sanctuary jurisdiction,” meaning that the sheriff there 
declined to honor most federal detention requests
 for undocumented individuals without a warrant or an allegation of a 
serious crime. But Trump, within days of his Inauguration, had ordered a
 crackdown on sanctuary jurisdictions, and ICE
 agents in Travis County had suddenly appeared in the courthouse. After 
Coronilla left his proceeding, his lawyer noticed two men who, he 
recalled, were “dressed like hunters.” The men followed Coronilla into 
an elevator, then identified themselves as ICE agents and arrested him for reëntry after deportation, a felony.
Coronilla’s
 wife begged a federal judge to spare her husband. Gangs had overrun his
 home town in Mexico, and deportees were prime targets for crime, since 
they were presumed to have money. Coronilla was deported in June. Three 
months later, gunmen woke him from the bed where he slept with his young
 son. According to the Austin American-Statesman,
 he tried to soothe the boy, saying, “Don’t worry, my love.” His body 
was found about forty miles away, filled with bullets. When I spoke to 
Coronilla’s wife shortly after his death, she told me that she’d 
returned to Mexico to claim his body. She now fears for her own life. 
“He was a good man,” she said. “Now I have to prepare for his funeral.”
In
 the years following the Second World War, the United Nations 
established a principle of international law known as non-refoulement, 
or non-return, which forbids the removal of asylum seekers to countries 
where they are likely to be tortured or killed. The principle was 
enshrined in the 1951 Convention Relating to the Status of Refugees, 
formalizing the concept of the “refugee” and insuring safe harbor for 
people who could show “a well-founded fear of being persecuted for 
reasons of race, religion, nationality, membership of a particular 
social group, or political opinion.” No one with a credible fear of 
persecution could be expelled “in any manner whatsoever to a territory 
where he or she fears threats to life or freedom.”
For
 the U.S., the effort to protect refugees was also an act of atonement. 
In 1939, the government had rejected a boat carrying more than nine 
hundred Jewish escapees from Nazi Germany. At least two hundred of them 
were later killed in the Holocaust. As the refugee crisis worsened, 
countless more were refused entry. President Franklin Roosevelt had 
warned the public that Jews posed a national-security threat, and argued
 for tighter restrictions on their numbers. “In some of the other 
countries that refugees out of Germany have gone to, especially Jewish 
refugees, they found a number of definitely proven spies,” he said at a 
press conference. Among those denied entry was Anne Frank, whose father 
applied for refugee status for his family in 1941, unsuccessfully. “What
 is done cannot be undone,” Anne wrote in her diary, “but one can prevent it happening again.” She later died of typhus in the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp.
In
 1980, Congress incorporated the idea of non-refoulement into the 
Refugee Act. The act established protocols for vetting and resettling 
refugees and assured asylum seekers that they would not be treated as 
criminals, even if they arrived unauthorized in the U.S. The act, which 
had bipartisan support, was also meant to bolster relationships with 
allies and to provide a humanitarian model of resettlement for the rest 
of the world.
Today, the first 
screening of asylum seekers at the border often falls to U.S. Customs 
and Border Protection officers, who attempt to separate out candidates 
for asylum and other forms of protection. Many agents treat the task 
with great care. In the Rio Grande Valley, in Texas, several told me 
that they view the work of identifying individuals who may have fled 
serious harm as one of the most rewarding parts of their job.
A
 field manual for C.B.P. agents lists a series of questions that agents 
must ask an unauthorized immigrant before subjecting him or her to 
immediate deportation. “Do you have any fear or concern about being 
returned to your home country or being removed from the United States?” 
one reads. “Would you be harmed if you were returned?” another asks. 
C.B.P. agents are not authorized to evaluate the validity of the fear 
expressed. Instead, anyone answering yes to these questions must be 
referred to an asylum officer from U.S. Citizenship and Immigration 
Services and given a chance to explain his or her fear. “The inspector 
should err on the side of caution,” the field manual reads, and “apply 
the criteria generously.”
Nevertheless,
 my team and I heard stories from more than a dozen women who say that 
they were never asked the required questions, or were ignored, mocked, 
or even sexually propositioned by U.S. agents after expressing their 
fears—and then deported to harm. In Queens, we met Rosaleda, who had 
worked as a police officer in Comayagua, Honduras, until her 
investigation of a cousin’s murder revealed a high-ranking colleague’s 
involvement in the crime, which Rosaleda reported to the department. 
Menacing phone calls began, followed by a drive-by shooting while she 
worked the overnight shift. “This is a warning,” read a note bearing her
 name that was left at the scene. “Leave things alone or we will kill 
you and next time we won’t miss.” Rosaleda asked a supervisor to 
transfer her; he said he’d consider it only in exchange for sex. In a 
second attempt on her life, while she was on patrol, two of her 
colleagues were killed. Rosaleda decided to
 risk the journey north. Her situation is surprisingly common, in some 
ways. In a recent study conducted by the U.N. High Commissioner for 
Human Rights, ten per cent of the women interviewed, who had fled El 
Salvador, Guatemala, Honduras, or Mexico, indicated that “the police or 
other authorities were the direct source of their harm.”
When
 Rosaleda arrived in Texas, she was apprehended and deported without 
seeing a judge or a lawyer. She hadn’t shared details of her escape from
 Honduras, fearing that it would further endanger her. She attempted to 
cross the border again, and was kidnapped by a cartel and held for 
ransom. Eventually, she made it to New York, where she found pro-bono 
legal help. But, because of her earlier—and, her attorney argues, 
unlawful—deportation, she is now ineligible for asylum. (She was granted
 a “withholding of removal,” which has allowed her to remain in the U.S.
 but offers no path to permanent legal status.)
Allegations
 abound of Customs and Border Protection officers dismissing asylum 
seekers more brazenly. According to a 2014 American Civil Liberties 
Union report based on conversations with nearly a hundred people who 
were removed without seeing an immigration judge, “Fifty-five percent 
said they were not asked about fear of persecution or torture,” while 
“forty percent who were asked and said they were afraid were ordered 
deported without seeing an asylum officer.” For years, the bipartisan 
U.S. Commission on International Religious Freedom has documented 
Customs and Border Protection’s noncompliance with asylum-seeker 
protections, including, in more than fifty per cent of cases, officers 
at ports of entry neglecting “to read the required information.” More 
recently, after Trump’s election, civil-liberties groups began 
documenting an apparent increase in rejections in some places on the 
border. According to a recent lawsuit, C.B.P. officers have told 
prospective asylum seekers, “The United States is not giving asylum 
anymore,” and “Trump says we don’t have to let you in.”
On
 the night Laura was sent back across the McAllen-Hidalgo International 
Bridge, her mother, Maria, put her grandkids to sleep and lay down on 
Laura’s bed. Lately, she’d been helping Laura with childcare. After her 
daughter got back from her waitressing shift, she would often get into 
bed next to her mom and tell stories from her day before falling asleep.
 When Maria noticed, around sunrise, that her daughter hadn’t returned, 
she began to worry.
Maria had 
raised Laura and her brother as a single mother while working at a Black
 & Decker plant in Reynosa, on the assembly line. She’d also done a 
stint at a laundromat, where Laura kept her company. Laura grew into a 
mischievous preteen. Once, she riled her brother by shaving off half his
 mustache while he was sleeping. At eighteen, Laura started seeing 
Sergio, who lived on her grandmother’s block. Sergio had a buzz cut, a 
square jaw, and an awkward sense of humor. He and Laura talked on the 
phone for hours, until Maria complained, “My phone bill—it’s a whole 
year’s salary!” Sergio had Laura’s name tattooed on his arm. After a 
year, Laura, who had a son from a previous relationship, gave birth to 
their first child. When Sergio later moved to Texas to work in 
construction with his father, Laura joined him. In 2007, the couple had 
another boy. Laura found work as a waitress and sold homemade candied 
apples door-to-door, while also taking care of the children. They were a
 handful, and, Maria recalled, “her partner was like a fourth child.”
Maria
 told me that Sergio had been abused as a child and had struggled with 
addiction. “He came from a tough psychological background,” Laura’s 
brother said. One time, Maria told me, Sergio dragged Laura across the 
floor by her hair. Another day, in March, 2008, when Laura said she was 
going to leave Sergio, he grabbed a knife and threatened to commit 
suicide. As Laura protested, he shoved her to the floor and kicked her 
in the ribs. He beat her so badly that she called the police and 
prepared to file charges against him. A judge signed an emergency 
protection order forbidding Sergio from going within two hundred yards 
of Laura’s home, but the order seemed only to enrage Sergio. After 
multiple threats against Laura, he was arrested, charged with assault, 
and deported to Mexico.
In the 
years since Laura and Sergio had left Reynosa, the town had become a 
cartel battleground. In 2008, at least five thousand Mexicans died in 
the drug war, more fatalities than the United States suffered during the
 Iraq War. That year, a drug kingpin was captured in a shoot-out near 
Laura’s childhood home, and the military seized five hundred and forty 
rifles, a hundred and sixty-five grenades, and fourteen sticks of TNT. A
 turf war began, to determine his replacement. After Sergio returned to 
Reynosa, he reportedly started working as a cartel grunt. Maria told me 
that he continued to threaten Laura, saying that if she ever returned to
 Mexico he’d set her on fire, and texting, “I’m going to smoke you.”
On
 that Tuesday morning in June when Laura didn’t come home from her 
waitressing shift, Maria considered the dark possibilities right away. 
Then the phone rang. It was Laura, from Reynosa. “I did everything I 
could,” she said, crying. “I even told the police, ‘Arrest me, and I’ll show you the documents,’ ” referring to the emergency protection order.
Laura
 called Elizabeth, too, and the cousins made a plan to meet in Reynosa. 
Elizabeth, trying to lighten the mood, asked whether the border agent 
who deported Laura was cute. Laura said that he was, and Elizabeth asked
 if she had tried to flirt. Laura replied, “I told him, ‘You’re sending 
me straight to the slaughterhouse.’ ”
For
 years, most undocumented immigrants facing deportation in the U.S. were
 given a chance to go before a judge—to show evidence, call witnesses, 
and make a case for why they should be allowed to stay. In 1996, 
Congress revoked that right for tens of thousands of immigrants, 
expanding forms of “summary removal,” which can take place without a 
hearing or judicial input. By 2013, more than eighty per cent of 
deportations were nonjudicial, with the result that life-or-death 
decisions now routinely rest in the hands of immigration authorities at 
the border.
Even when asylum 
seekers get the opportunity to see a judge, it can be difficult to prove
 that their fears merit legal relief. Asylum seekers aren’t entitled to 
lawyers, and children as young as three have been told to represent 
themselves in immigration court. According to Transactional Records 
Access Clearinghouse, at Syracuse University, asylum seekers who find 
legal representation are five times more likely to win their cases. 
Geography is a strong determining factor in their fates. When the 
Government Accountability Office studied the outcomes of asylum cases in
 courts nationwide, it found significant geographical disparities in the
 responses to nearly identical situations. Between 2007 and 2014, some 
sixty per cent of asylum applicants won their cases in New York City, 
while in the courts of Omaha and Atlanta less than five per cent did.
Perhaps
 the most formidable challenge for asylum seekers is that the Second 
World War-era categories of protection aren’t well suited to immigrants 
fleeing modern gang violence. Courts resist recognizing the asylum 
claims of people who have been targeted by MS-13, for instance, because 
the motive for violence rarely fits the criteria. For victims of 
domestic violence, the legal protections, including the Violence Against
 Women Act, are slightly more favorable. If Laura had gone before a 
judge, she could have had multiple options for potential relief, 
including a U visa, for crime victims. Still, the legal scholar Blaine 
Bookey writes, “Whether a woman fleeing domestic violence will receive 
protection in the United States seems to depend not on the consistent 
application of objective principles, but rather on the view of her 
individual judge, often untethered to any legal principles at all.”
Not
 long ago, I met a young mother who asked to be identified by her middle
 name, Elena. In Honduras, where she grew up, her teen-age brother was 
murdered by MS-13 for being gay, another brother was killed for refusing
 to join the gang, and her sister was shot for ignoring a gang leader’s 
sexual advances after he’d raped and impregnated her. A different gang 
member began pursuing Elena, and fired shots at her house after she 
turned him down. She reported the crime to police, and then learned that
 he was planning further retaliation against her.
In
 2012, Elena crossed the U.S. border near Eagle Pass, Texas, and told a 
Border Patrol agent that she feared for her life. He logged her 
possessions: a black sweater, a hairband, gray shoelaces, and a key 
chain with photographs of her two children, whom she’d left behind in 
Honduras. He asked, “Would you be harmed if you are returned to your 
home country?” He wrote down a single word: “No.”
In
 detention, Elena fought back against this supposed denial, and won a 
hearing with an asylum officer, who corrected the record. Here she 
encountered a new obstacle. After she related her experiences, the 
officer asked her whether she was persecuted on account of her race, 
religion, nationality, political opinion, or membership in a particular 
social group—the refugee criteria created by the United Nations to 
reflect the political threats of 1951. Elena answered no on all counts, 
and the officer determined that she did not qualify to apply for asylum.
Elena
 appealed, requesting a hearing with a judge. Asking to go before an 
immigration judge often means a long stint in detention, and detention 
can mean poor food, minimal medical care, and scant access to legal 
counsel. In the past, federal policy has encouraged releasing asylum 
seekers while they await court hearings, sparing taxpayers the cost of 
detention. But in the last year of Obama’s Presidency, and then under 
Trump, the percentage of asylum seekers who were granted parole 
plummeted. Government data obtained in a civil-rights lawsuit showed 
that, in one New York facility, fifty per cent of parole requests were 
granted in the months immediately before Trump’s Inauguration. In the 
months after, twelve per cent were.
After
 three months in detention, Elena was granted a rare hearing before an 
immigration judge. The hearing took place virtually, with the judge 
appearing on a video monitor. He asked Elena one question.
“Did you move to any other city in Honduras before coming to the United States?” he inquired.
“No,” she said.
“Well,
 the government of the United States doesn’t afford you protection for 
this type of reason. I affirm the asylum officer’s decision. Nothing 
further.” Elena was deported two weeks later.
Back
 in her home town, Elena was assaulted at gunpoint by the man she’d 
fled. He tortured her, holding a lighter to her skin. Other gang members
 cracked her thirteen-year-old son’s skull. She fled, with her kids, to a
 tobacco-farming town in western Honduras, where the man who’d been 
pursuing her found her again. Once more, she escaped to the U.S. This 
time, authorities agreed that Elena’s fear—and the threat to her kids’ 
lives—was credible. But, like Rosaleda, she is barred from receiving 
asylum because of her prior deportation.
Many
 immigrants, after being deported, never get a second chance to prove 
their claims. Constantino Morales was a cop in Guerrero, Mexico, until 
he tried to break up a drug cartel and became a target of violence. He 
escaped to the U.S. and worked at a Cheesecake Factory in Des Moines, 
Iowa, and then became a popular laborers’-rights advocate. As with 
Laura, a minor traffic stop led to his removal, which he initially 
fought. At a community meeting with Tom Latham, at that time a 
Republican congressman, Morales said, “If I am sent back, I will face 
more violence, and I could lose my life.” Morales had applied for asylum
 a month earlier. He was denied. At the time, the U.S. State Department 
called Guerrero “the most violent state in Mexico.” Seven months after 
Morales’s deportation, he was shot and killed.
In
 October, Attorney General Jeff Sessions decried the “rampant abuse and 
fraud” in the asylum system and said that “the system is being gamed.” 
The Trump Administration has called on Congress to crack down, which 
federal immigration judges may be doing already. For the past several 
years, asylum grant rates have declined. In 2017, judges rejected some 
sixty per cent of asylum seekers, the highest denial rate in more than a
 decade.
Protections have also 
evaporated for many refugees seeking resettlement in the U.S. Trump has 
portrayed refugees from countries such as Syria, Iraq, and Somalia not 
as candidates for humanitarian assistance but as national-security 
threats. In his first days in office, he banned many of them from 
travelling to the U.S. The ban is being contested in ongoing litigation.
 Several asylum and refugee officers told me they worry that the ban, 
and the inflamed discourse about refugees more generally, misrepresents 
their highly comprehensive vetting process, and undermines core American
 values.
“We have a great 
mission characterized by extreme caution and care,” Michael Knowles, a 
U.S. asylum officer for the past twenty-five years, told me, speaking as
 the president of Council 119, a union representing refugee and asylum 
officers and other staff of U.S. Citizenship and Immigration Services. 
“Ours is a dual mission—to identify people who aren’t refugees and who, 
worst case, might wish us harm, but also to identify and protect 
refugees.” At a meeting in March, 2017, with John Kelly, the Secretary 
of Homeland Security at the time, Knowles warned that asylum and refugee
 officers are “deeply concerned” about the future of the program. 
Knowles told me what he wished he could have said to Kelly: “You’ve 
already unshackled Border Patrol. Please, don’t put the shackles on us.”
In
 the hours after Laura’s deportation, Elizabeth drove across the border 
to meet her. “Ay,” Laura joked, after Elizabeth arrived at her 
grandmother’s house, in Reynosa. “What’s going to happen to my birthday 
party?” Maria and the kids came soon afterward, and they set up an 
inflatable pool in the back yard so that the boys could play while the 
adults discussed what to do.
Sergio
 soon learned of Laura’s return. He began driving by the house, shouting
 obscenities. A few days after her arrival in Mexico, Laura went to the 
pharmacy with Elizabeth and her youngest child. As she pulled the car 
out of the driveway, another vehicle T-boned her, blocking her exit. 
Sergio leaped out of the car and dragged Laura from her seat through the
 window, shouting, “You bitch!” He bit off a chunk of her ear and tried 
to strangle her, as their child cried in the back seat. Elizabeth 
grabbed a fallen tree branch and hit Sergio on the head. He stumbled, 
muttering, “You better not get involved.”
“I’m
 calling the cops,” Elizabeth told him, flipping open her phone. The 
gesture was a ruse—her U.S. cell phone didn’t work in Mexico, and, 
anyway, the local police were known to collaborate with the cartels. But
 it worked. Sergio staggered back to his car and drove off.
The
 incident gave the cousins new urgency. Elizabeth emptied a coffee can 
and wrote “Help bring Laura back!” on it. She took it to friends and 
family members, asking for money to pay a coyote to smuggle Laura into 
the U.S. Laura’s trailer in Texas was only a twenty-minute drive from 
Reynosa, but it would take hundreds, if not thousands, of dollars, and a
 risky crossing, to get her there.
The
 next day, Laura left the house in her mother’s Ford Contour to buy food
 for the kids. By evening, she had not returned. “We called the Red 
Cross, we called the hospitals, we called the police,” Elizabeth said. 
The following morning, Maria turned on the local news, and a grisly 
image flashed across the screen. It was an incinerated vehicle, with a 
charred human skeleton in the front seat. The car was a Ford Contour.
Sergio seems like the kind of immigrant
 few Americans would object to deporting. In speeches, Trump has often 
warned the country about “bad hombres,” emphasizing the spectre of 
violent men to justify his deportation policies. Obama, whose 
Administration deported more immigrants than any other, also divided 
undocumented immigrants into neat categories: the longtimers versus the 
newcomers, those keen to “get right with the law” versus those trying to
 skate beneath it. “We’re going to keep focussing enforcement resources 
on actual threats to our security,” he promised, in 2014. “Felons, not 
families. Criminals, not children. Gang members, not a mom who’s working
 hard to provide for her kids.”
But
 even some immigrants who have committed felonies or other crimes have 
stories that are more complicated than they first appear. At a law 
office in San Francisco, I met the surviving family members of a woman 
named Yadira. She’d come to California from La Lima, Honduras, in the 
early two-thousands, to escape an abusive boyfriend. In 2010, she was 
deported on a drug-possession charge, despite articulating her fear of 
return. After she was back in La Lima, her brother, who was confined to a
 wheelchair, was murdered by the Mara 18 gang. (He had left a competing 
gang more than a decade earlier, after being shot and paralyzed.) 
Together with her grandparents, Yadira’s fourteen-year-old daughter 
discovered his body. Yadira began speaking out publicly against the 
gang, and became a target. Afraid for her life, she went north, hoping 
to get back to San Francisco.
At
 the U.S. border, she told officials about her brother’s murder but was 
detained nevertheless. “They’re going to deport me,” she told her 
father, in a call from detention, saying that she had begged for 
protection. (The C.B.P. stated that Yadira “did not claim fear of 
persecution.”) She stepped off the tarmac in Honduras wearing her 
favorite “California” sweatpants, hoping to go unnoticed. Her father, a 
trucker for Chiquita bananas, drove her home. A few days later, her 
youngest daughter found her body in front of the house, riddled with 
bullets.
Under Trump, ICE
 arrests of undocumented immigrants—including those accused, but not 
convicted, of minor crimes—have gone up by nearly forty per cent. Trump 
describes these roundups to the electorate as a public-safety measure, 
but many law-enforcement leaders argue that they can have the opposite 
effect, lowering the rate at which crimes are reported. In February, a 
group of sixty law-enforcement officials warned, in a letter to 
Congress, that Trump’s policies “could harm community trust and make it 
harder for state and local law enforcement agencies to do our jobs.” In 
March, Los Angeles’s police chief noted that reports of sexual assault 
among the city’s Latino population had declined twenty-five per cent in 
the first three months of 2017, Trump’s first months in office. 
Domestic-violence reports dropped ten per cent. (The decline was not 
found among other ethnic groups.) In April, Houston’s police chief noted
 that the number of Hispanics reporting rape was down more than forty 
per cent.
My team and I filed 
public-record requests in the twenty U.S. cities with the highest 
populations of undocumented immigrants, in order to determine the extent
 of this change. We obtained sexual-assault and domestic-violence 
reports from heavily Hispanic neighborhoods, and contacted more than a 
hundred police departments, district attorneys, legal-services 
providers, and domestic-violence shelters.
The
 results were striking. In Arlington, Virginia, domestic-assault reports
 in one Hispanic neighborhood dropped more than eighty-five per cent in 
the first eight months after Trump’s Inauguration, compared with the 
same period the previous year. Reports of rape and sexual assault fell 
seventy-five per cent. Meanwhile, in Chicago, domestic-incident and 
sexual-assault reports from Hispanic victims dropped seven per cent. In 
Denver, the city attorney, Kristin Bronson, told us of more than a dozen
 Latina women who had dropped their domestic-abuse cases since Trump 
took office, citing fear of deportation. She estimates that the number 
of women who have avoided pursuing legal action against an abuser is far
 higher.
Many local 
law-enforcement officers are also concerned about state-based 
legislation, including bills requiring local cops to act as subsidiaries
 of ICE. A 
Texas law called SB4, known as the “show me your papers” law, threatens 
to jail or fine sheriffs who don’t coöperate with immigration holds. The
 law, which was supposed to go into effect in September but is in 
litigation, would make routine the process by which Laura was turned 
over to Border Patrol. Last July, the Major Cities Chiefs Association, a
 group of police chiefs and sheriffs representing dozens of large 
cities, joined with two other groups condemning SB4, warning the court 
that the law “will dangerously impact local communities by eliminating 
law enforcement discretion of how to effectively serve public safety 
needs.”
On
 June 17, 2009, a week after Laura’s return to Reynosa, a coroner 
confirmed that her DNA had been found in the Ford Contour, and the 
police delivered her remains to Maria. The next day was Laura’s 
twenty-third birthday, and Elizabeth kept her promise to throw a party. 
She and Maria got balloons, prepared a cake, and hired a mariachi band. 
The birthday also served as a burial. At the gravesite, Laura’s family 
called her Texas friends on video chat. Laura’s eldest son brought his 
mother a gift, a figurine of his favorite cartoon character, and placed 
it in the coffin.
That week, Sergio was arrested by the Mexican police and confessed
 to Laura’s murder. He’d strangled her, according to the local press, 
then doused her in gasoline and set her on fire. Maria and Elizabeth 
testified at his trial. He was sentenced to forty years in prison.
Grief,
 for Maria, was soon subsumed by the challenge of caring for Laura’s 
sons. A teacher called her to complain that one of the boys had told his
 class that his dad had killed his mom. “He cannot do that!” the teacher
 said. Maria told her, “He’s a child, and he’s in pain.” One day, 
Laura’s middle child Googled his mother and discovered disturbing 
details about her murder. He threw a fit, smashing furniture and crying,
 “I don’t want to be here without my mom!” At home, the youngest boy 
asked his grandmother, “Can you make her again, so that I can see her?”
I
 went to Texas to meet Maria, and she welcomed me into her darkened 
apartment wearing black. She had the same deep-set eyes and velvety 
brows as her daughter, whose photograph hung above an overstuffed couch.
 “What I’m most proud of is what she left me—my grandsons,” Maria said, 
as she made coffee, gesturing toward the boys’ grade-school portraits in
 the living room. She added, “There’s a reason they’re alive.”
She
 showed me a cigar box on a shelf by the front door, the boys’ Mom Box. 
“If they find something girly outside, they bring it home and put it in 
the box,” Maria said. We looked through the contents: pink ribbons, a 
Disney Birthday Princess pin, a Mr. Potato Head ring, a Peter Pan 
figurine, and assorted trinkets that reminded the boys of Laura. 
Underneath was a copy of Laura’s emergency protection order, carefully 
folded.
When Maria realized 
that the boys would soon be home from school, she told me that there was
 one last thing she wanted to show me. “You know how usually, when you 
box up someone’s clothes, and then you take them out, they smell bad?” 
she asked. “Well, my daughter’s clothes, they don’t smell that way. 
They’re still fresh.” She went into the bedroom and returned with an 
armful of clothing. At her urging, I pressed my face into one of Laura’s
 red satin blouses. A gentle scent lingered—unobtrusive, vaguely floral,
 verging on nothingness. I found it strange, after so many hours spent 
searching for Laura, to find her here.
Maria
 told me that shortly after Laura’s death she began encountering 
problems raising the boys. She wasn’t their legal guardian, and doctors 
wouldn’t allow her to make decisions about their medical care. Signing 
off on school activities and therapy dates was complicated. So, one day 
in 2013, she packed up the boys and took them to the law offices of 
Jennifer Harbury, a civil-rights attorney.
Harbury
 told me that, in the meeting, the boys “were a wreck.” She explained, 
“The older one was rocking back and forth, and the middle child looked 
scared—crying and hyper and desperate—and the little one was very 
upset.” The whole family, Harbury said, showed “every sign of 
post-traumatic stress you can think of.”
Maria
 told Harbury that she needed help getting custody of her grandsons, and
 then recounted the circumstances of Laura’s death. “When a woman is 
afraid,” Maria asked, “why can’t you give her the opportunity to show 
her documents, to show her evidence?”
Harbury
 was stunned. Her team could help Maria get custody of the kids, she 
said. But, as the pair discussed the case, another idea emerged: filing a
 lawsuit against agents of the Border Patrol.
Harbury,
 who is sixty-six, has made a career of challenging alleged abuses of 
immigrants, including refoulements. She grew up in Connecticut and 
California, in a family that had fled Nazi persecution in Holland during
 the Second World War. After graduating from Harvard Law School, in 
1978, she moved to the Rio Grande Valley to defend farmworkers’ rights. 
In the early eighties, she noticed an alarming trend: thousands of 
Salvadorans and indigenous Guatemalans were crossing the Rio Grande, 
fleeing civil wars. Most were denied asylum and forced to return—often, 
she said, “to face torture chambers and death squads,” some of which 
were funded in part by the U.S. government.
In
 1990, Harbury went to Guatemala to conduct research on indigenous women
 rebels fighting in the country’s civil war. Atop a volcano, she met a 
young Mayan rebel commander, Efraín Bámaca Velásquez, who went by the 
war name Everardo. They fell in love and travelled back to rural Texas, 
where they married and, in the tradition of leftist guerrilla fighters, 
exchanged silver spoons. A few months later, with Harbury’s support, 
Bámaca returned home to fight the Guatemalan Army. Then he disappeared.
At
 first, the Army claimed that Bámaca had been killed in combat. But 
Harbury grew suspicious when she reviewed the autopsy report. “Everardo 
was a walking war museum,” she said, explaining that he was covered in 
scars—and yet the report noted none of them. Later, a rebel fighter who 
had been captured by the Army escaped, and claimed to have seen Bámaca 
alive, being tortured on a Guatemalan military base.
Harbury
 began a series of hunger strikes, sleeping on the pavement in front of 
Guatemala’s Presidential palace for thirty-two days, demanding answers. 
She attracted the attention of U.S. news shows and celebrities like 
Bianca Jagger and Charlie Rose. “If you kill him, I’m going to die
 on your doorstep with convulsions in front of every camera in the 
world,” Harbury said, addressing the Guatemalan government. “You’re 
going to be seen.” CBS reported that the C.I.A. knew that Bámaca had 
been captured alive and tortured, and Harbury moved her hunger strike to
 the gates of the White House. On the twelfth day of her fast, the 
congressman Robert G. Torricelli revealed that a Guatemalan Army colonel
 being paid by the C.I.A. had been involved in Bámaca’s torture, as well
 as in the earlier killing of a U.S. citizen, in 1990. President 
Clinton’s Administration ordered internal investigations into the United
 States’ role in the murders and their coverups.
Along the way, Harbury became something of a celebrity herself. The writer Chris Kraus centered part of her cult hit “I Love Dick”
 on her, describing Harbury’s pre-fasting aesthetic as “Hillary Clinton 
on a budget”—“a well-proportioned face with good WASP bones, blonde 
tousled bubble-cut, a cheap tweed coat, clear gaze”—and noting that, 
mid-fast, people looked at Harbury as “a strange animal.” Ted Turner 
bought the film rights to her life story, and a Times reporter
 suggested Madonna for the role, writing, “It would take a certain 
controlled irreverence and mad gusto to get Jennifer Harbury on the 
screen.”
In 1995, Bill Clinton 
suspended covert C.I.A. funding to the Guatemalan Army after the agency 
admitted to making mistakes in Bámaca’s case. To Harbury, this was far 
from sufficient. By then, she’d learned that her husband had been killed
 by men on the C.I.A.’s payroll. The next year, she sued officials from 
the State Department, the C.I.A., and other government bodies for 
denying her access to information that might have helped prevent her 
husband’s killing.
The case was
 filed as a “Bivens” claim, so called because of the case of Bivens v. 
Six Unknown Named Agents, which, in 1971, established that citizens 
could sue federal officials if their rights had been violated. Harbury’s
 claim was simple: if the government hadn’t lied about her husband’s 
whereabouts, she could have petitioned for his rescue. Her case 
eventually went to the Supreme Court, where, in an unusual move, Harbury
 argued it herself. The Court acknowledged “appreciating Harbury’s 
anguish” but ruled against her.
In
 Maria’s story, Harbury saw a grief similar to her own, and a chance to 
hold the government accountable for another family’s anguish. “The U.S. 
government should not be free to submit people to torture and murder,” 
she said. “They did it in my husband’s case, and they did it in Laura’s 
case.”
Maria worried about 
antagonizing the authorities, but she was desperate for ways to draw 
meaning from her daughter’s death. Recently, she had given Laura’s 
porcelain-doll collection to a center for abused girls. “In the case of 
my child,” she said, “there are many lessons that could be useful for 
other women.” Maria decided to press ahead with a lawsuit.
They
 had to work quickly, because the statute of limitations in Laura’s case
 had nearly expired. Harbury partnered with the Texas Civil Rights 
Project, a nonprofit that often pursues civil-rights cases on behalf of 
immigrants, and she was soon joined by one of the group’s attorneys, 
Efrén Olivares. On June 5, 2013, they filed Maria S. v. John Doe, on 
behalf of Laura’s three sons. U.S. immigration agents, they alleged, had
 arrested Laura, then “violated her procedural due process rights” and 
“refused to consider her clear eligibility for relief from removal.” 
Laura had the right to a full and fair hearing before a qualified 
immigration judge, and the right to counsel at her own expense, as 
afforded by the Fifth Amendment. Instead, the complaint claimed, agents 
had sent Laura back to “extreme danger, resulting in her battery and 
death.” Their decisions, the complaint said, “shock the conscience.”
Holding
 U.S. Customs and Border Protection legally accountable is difficult but
 not impossible. The day before Maria S. v. John Doe was filed, the 
A.C.L.U. brought a class-action case against officers from Border Patrol
 and ICE in 
Southern California, alleging the widespread use of coercion, threats, 
and deception to get immigrants to sign their own expulsion orders, 
including a form called the I-826. In 2014, the Department of Homeland 
Security and other defendants agreed to a settlement. A long list of 
reforms resulted, including a stipulation that prospective deportees 
could use a phone to call a family member, a legal-service provider, or a
 Mexican consulate before removal. The reforms, however, applied only to
 Southern California.
Other 
suits are pending. Last July, a nonprofit called Al Otro Lado sued 
officials at the Department of Homeland Security and at Customs and 
Border Protection, alleging that asylum seekers are being 
“systematically turned away at ports of entry.” Last year, the city of 
Chicago sued Trump’s Justice Department over a plan to withhold federal 
public-safety funds from sanctuary cities.
Harbury
 has become involved in still more cases. After Trump’s election, she 
began interviewing recent deportees in Reynosa about their experiences 
with U.S. immigration authorities, and gathered accounts of asylum 
seekers who’d been kidnapped or otherwise harmed after being turned 
away. She compiled her findings in a sworn legal declaration, and shared
 it with a national network of civil-rights attorneys. In September, she
 filed a suit against officers from ICE and other government entities on behalf of a group of “young civilians who were forced to flee their homelands due to
 the ongoing violence.” These asylum seekers had come from places as 
diverse as Ghana, Guatemala, and Sierra Leone, but faced the same 
“danger of severe persecution” if deported. Although they had committed 
no crimes, the suit alleged, they had been “wrongfully denied parole and
 subjected to prolonged and arbitrary detention in prison-like 
conditions.”
The case of Maria 
S. v. John Doe, filed on behalf of Laura’s kids, ended up on the docket 
of Judge Andrew Hanen, of the U.S. District Court for the Southern 
District of Texas, in Brownsville. His rulings on immigration are 
infamous. In 2015, he accused the Obama Administration’s Department of 
Homeland Security of “criminal conspiracy” after the agency chose not to
 arrest and deport an undocumented mother who had paid a smuggler to 
bring her child to the States. Hanen said that the decision set a 
“dangerous and unconscionable” precedent.
Government
 lawyers argued for the dismissal of Maria’s suit, saying that U.S. 
Border Patrol agents enjoy wide immunity from civil lawsuits. It seemed 
likely that Hanen would side with the government, but, in 2015, in one 
of his first decisions in the case, he took a surprising position. He 
refused to dismiss the suit, writing, “Even aliens who have entered the 
United States unlawfully are assured the protections of the Fifth 
Amendment due process clause.” The case, he said, could move to 
discovery, which would have to focus on a single issue: whether, and 
how, Laura’s deportation had been coerced.
At
 a pretrial hearing of Maria S. v. John Doe, Hanen clarified this 
critical question. Laura, he noted, had signed an I-826 form in the 
hours before her removal, checking the box giving up her right to seek 
asylum, which reads, “I admit that I am in the United States illegally, 
and I believe I do not face harm if I return to my country.” Why? If 
Laura really feared for her life, had she signed under duress? Or did 
she check the box voluntarily?
Harbury
 tracked down one of the friends who had been in the car that night. She
 was frightened but agreed to testify. While seated at the processing 
station, the woman recalled, Laura wept and begged the border 
officer—Ramiro Garza—not to send her back. The officer, she said, had a 
gun and an “annoyed” expression. He put the paperwork in front of Laura,
 and ordered her to sign. “This is an injustice!” Laura objected, 
according to the friend. Garza, she said, “mocked” Laura, and pressed 
again. The pair went back and forth until Laura caved. (Garza denied 
this version of events, and said that he would never force anyone to 
sign the form.) Laura’s friend said that her own decision to sign was 
influenced by the prospect of the long detention that often accompanies 
fighting deportation. “I didn’t want to be locked in,” she said, 
“because I have children.”
In 
July, 2017, Hanen finally handed down his ruling. “This case presents 
one of the most lamentable set of circumstances that this Court has ever
 been called upon to address,” Hanen wrote. It left the court with “a 
profound sense of sadness about the disastrous chain of events that 
ended in the defendant’s murder.” But he said that he couldn’t overcome 
the problem that “the only person who can truly reveal Laura S.’s 
motivation” in checking the box—Laura herself—“was killed.” As a result,
 coercion was hard to prove. Perhaps she was coerced, Hanen said, or 
perhaps she signed the I-826 so that she wouldn’t be in detention during
 her son’s surgery, or for some other unknown or unknowable reason.
“Despite
 their best efforts,” Hanen ruled, “Plaintiffs have failed to clear the 
evidentiary hurdle created by the death of Laura S.” The case was 
dismissed.
Harbury felt 
heartsick, but she’d always known that the case might have to wind its 
way through higher appeals courts. Last August, Harbury and the other 
lawyers filed with the Fifth Circuit Court of Appeals, arguing that the 
case should be heard by a jury. They noted that the lawsuit’s outcome 
“directly affects ongoing life and death situations” for other 
immigrants. Harbury is hopeful that, if success eludes them in the 
initial appeals, the case will eventually reach the Supreme Court. And 
if no justice emerges there? Harbury and her team will turn to the 
Inter-American Commission on Human Rights. There, they can draw on 
treaties meant to protect immigrants like those the United States failed
 in the Second World War.
For
 Laura’s family, the stakes of the case are profound. But they also have
 other, more immediate worries. Not long after Laura’s murder, 
Elizabeth’s purse was stolen from her car. Her visa—her only proof of 
legal status—was inside. Then, in 2015, she learned about Obama’s 
Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals program, or DACA,
 which was intended for people who had come to the U.S. as children and,
 in many cases, grown up here, who wanted to work legally, get an 
education, and stay in the place they considered home. Elizabeth decided
 to apply. She had to prove that she’d come to the U.S. before the age 
of sixteen, posed no threat to national security, and met a list of 
other criteria. Not long after submitting her materials, she was 
notified that she had won legal relief, and officially become a Dreamer.
Politically, Obama’s DACA policies have been hugely popular. Recent polls
 show that more than three out of four Americans support allowing 
Dreamers to remain in the U.S., and two-thirds of Republicans back a 
pathway to citizenship for them. But, last September, Elizabeth got 
frightening news: Trump had ordered an end to the program, and had given
 Congress six months to extend its protections. Elizabeth had to submit a
 renewal request before an October deadline, but she couldn’t afford the
 legal fees. Her immigration attorney, she told me, refused to return 
her paperwork without a substantial payment.
In December, Elizabeth’s DACA
 status expired. If a legislative solution isn’t reached by early March,
 nearly seven hundred thousand people in the U.S. will be stripped of 
their legal status and their protection from deportation. Earlier this 
month, three former Homeland Security Secretaries, including Michael 
Chertoff, who served under George W. Bush, wrote a letter to Congress 
underscoring the importance of a DACA
 fix. “We write not only in strong support of this legislation, but to 
stress that it should be enacted speedily, in order to meet the 
significant administrative requirements of implementation, as well as 
the need to provide certainty for employers and these young people,” the
 letter read.
Some Dreamers 
fear for their lives if sent back. Elizabeth testified against Sergio at
 his murder trial, and she told me that he has called her relatives in 
Reynosa from prison to make death threats against her. When she lost her
 legal status, she also lost her work permit, and therefore her job. 
Some days, anxiety overtakes her. “I’m still trying my best,” she 
recently texted me, “which is what matters.”
Still,
 when I asked Elizabeth what she would tell President Trump if they ever
 met, she immediately thought of Laura’s boys. “Please be conscious of 
what happens when a woman gets deported,” she said. “It’s not only what 
could happen to her—it’s the family she leaves behind, in America. 
Please think of those kids.”
At
 home last summer, Laura’s boys celebrated what would have been their 
mother’s thirty-first birthday. Maria decorated a vanilla cake with 
fresh carnations and hung streamers from the ceiling in Laura’s favorite
 colors: purple, pink, and light blue. She gathered the family in the 
living room—the three boys and Elizabeth, as well as aunts and uncles 
and cousins—and handed out pens. Each person wrote a message to Laura on
 a piece of notebook paper, which they tied to pink balloons and 
launched into the sky.
“Hi, mami,”
 Laura’s youngest wrote, in Spanish. “I miss you.” He said that he hoped
 to have four careers—as “a basketball player, a Nascar driver, an 
engineer, and a YouTuber”—so that he could send his earnings to his mom 
in Heaven, after buying himself a “fancy refrigerator.”
The
 oldest boy told me of his plans to persuade the rapper Drake to adopt 
him. He loved Drake’s music, and his style, and his Instagram feed, and 
he knew Drake would love his, too. “Hey, Mom,” he wrote. “I need you to 
take care of me.”
Laura’s 
middle child kept his note secret, but he showed me a poster board he’d 
made for his mother, with colorful pompoms and photographs glued above a
 poem he’d written: “Wave after wave / Crushes onto my legs / I remember
 Mom’s every word / To help me stand on my own two feet.”
At
 the kitchen table, the boys played with an iPhone. “Siri, what is ten 
to the thousandth?” the youngest asked. “Siri, who am I?”
“Who is my mommy?”
“Who is Donald Trump?”
“How old is Donald Trump?”
The oldest chimed in, “Siri, can I call my mom?”
Maria
 sometimes envies the boys’ approach to death. She told me that twice 
Laura’s eldest son had stood at the bus stop after school, craning his 
neck, waiting. “What is it?” she asked.
“When is Mom coming?” he replied.
“Mom’s
 not coming,” she told her grandson. “Remember where we left her?” she 
asked gently, pulling him close. “We left her on the other side of the 
border.” ♦
This
 story was produced in collaboration with the Global Migration Project, 
at Columbia University's Graduate School of Journalism. Fellows include:
 Annie Hylton, Anjali Tsui, Sarah Salvadore, Divya Kumar, Astha 
Rajvanshi, Chris Gelardi, Yemile Bucay, Micah Hauser, and Noor Ibrahim.
 
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